I suppose it is only natural for a mother to feel nostalgic as her children's birthdays come by. As these landmarks are reached, the years just seem to fall away, and all I remember is how I felt holding that tiny little form in my arms. I was shaking, tearful, shocked and overwhelmed - it was as if a dream... reality altered to such an extent I completely lost my bearings. I gazed at her, counting her fingers and her toes, over and over again - not believing this child could be real - not believing she was mine!
Oh the Love I felt! I could not contain it... I had never before felt such power flowing through me. In the flow of such emotion, it is easy to believe that it is Love itself that creates and changes worlds. Love truly is the most powerful force in the Universe.
I was young. In many ways still a child. I had never even held a baby before! I was used to my way of life - I knew my days, my weeks and my years. There was an order I understood, and a routine I thought I controlled.
My whole life changed in those few traumatic hours. As I gave birth - it was not just to my daughter - it was to a whole new chapter in my life as well. One that was to change everything about me - ask questions I had no answers for - push me to the limit and beyond.
Our children are such gifts! We are so very blessed to know them. They are full of divine light, and bring with them such opportunities for our learning and our growth if we are only open hearted enough and awake enough to see it. They challenge us, they push us, they make us go where we think we don't want to go. But all along it is for our greater good - no question.
As I get older I feel the connection between us ever deeper. It is an unseen, and in a sense, untouchable connection. It is not the one you feel with a hug - it is bigger, more expansive, more lasting. It is the flow of life - of love itself - this is the energy I feel when I think of her.
I Love my daughter with every layer of my being - it is Love that flows out to infinity for ever, it is Love the highest vibration of all and I am truly blessed to feel it in my heart.
Happy Birthday sweetheart! xxx