I have been tapping virtually every waking minute these last few weeks - triggered almost constantly by events in my daily life. Until I began this process, I had no idea how deeply scarred I was. I have found myself to be full to the brim with negative reactions based on experiences of the past, and I can see how difficult it is to move freely and joyfully into the future when your entire outlook is filtered through memories. No wonder older people can be so jaded and cynical about life - they (or should I say we) are contaminating all our new experiences by referencing everything to the past.
I want to be free! I want to see my world without judgment and fear. I want to be excited and amazed, not so limited by fear and cynicism that I cannot see the fun in being alive.
It's a very strange thing, but when we are truly ready for change, change often gets thrust upon us. Lately I have been unable to spend even a couple of minutes on a computer . Unable to be distracted in this way, I have been forced to look at myself. It has not been easy - I have been in darkness.
I can see how I have kept myself so small these long years.. that the fears accompanying me from the past have ensured I've locked my own door to my own prison. I've been my own jailer. I've kept myself quiet for fear of being heard, invisible for fear of being seen, isolated for fear of being touched. It has been a lonely experience.
It takes real courage to go against the habits and beliefs of a lifetime. It seems so daunting and frightening to open up to the possibility that all along I could have been missing out on a joyful, fulfilled life.
When the doubts show up, when the fears grip my heart, I just keep tapping. At the very least it gives me something to do while the emotion passes!
There is a lot of information about EFT on the web - there are many youtube videos of how to do it (Margaret Lynch is good). And there is one thing we know for sure, and that is everything changes. I seems to me, what can make life so difficult is all the hard work we have to put in to resist these changes. Being stuck takes a lot of energy - being free is easy.