Is it in our power to decide the scene of our last act? Or are we simply dealt a hand, and we have to play it out, however it may be.
I think we have a say in it. After all, if everything is neither good nor bad, and it is only our judgment that gives it meaning, perhaps we can simply decide how we will view it now - and when the time comes.
To wake up each day and feel gratitude for still being here is a blessing if we could but remember it. To still be breathing and seeing in a new dawn is a gift! 'I'm still here! Can you believe it!'
A friend asked me this week, how would I be if I had just a month to live - not what would I do, but how would I be?
I thought firstly of the freedom it would give me. No more concerns about money! With just a month to go, the debts that keep me half-frozen hold no power over me now! I would put down my heavy financial load and fret no more. I would not worry about my health either, of growing old and becoming sick - with just a month to go it doesn't matter, what will be, will be! And then I thought of the enduring questions this life has no answers for. Does life continue after death in some form? Are we, as I believe in my heart we truly are, eternal beings? Do we return to live again to learn some more? So many questions...
But how would I be?
I think I would be closer to my true, authentic self. I think my emotions would be out of the bag at last. I like to think I would be openhearted because I would feel safe. The fears of being wrong and judged would be gone. I would be free to be myself, do what I need to do and love those dear to me. I would treasure each minute of each day and feel blessed in every moment. I would see life as the the ultimate gift it really is, and I would live it...
The truth is, none of us know when the sun will go down for that last time and this life experience will be over. We just don't know.
So why don't we treasure it - why are we wasting it?
Why does it take a deadline to make us appreciate life?