But then again, like so much in this world, always there are choices we can make and interpretations we can take, and perhaps things are not exactly how they seem...
I have been invaded by a virus this last past week that spiked a temperature so high I actually collapsed onto the bedroom floor. One second I was trying to get to the bathroom as the urge to vomit took me over, and the next I was noticing how thin and worn my bedroom carpet is. I couldn't see straight, I struggled to breathe and the whole process was most unpleasant.
So what are the benefits of such an experience?
For me, the first thing has been noticing I have been fully present the whole time. Even the nightmares. although not images I would ever choose, faded to nothing when I awoke. While my temperature soared and my body shivered and shook, a part of me remained at perfect peace. Unable to read or use the computer as my eyes were stinging, I have been watching my thoughts instead, bringing core emotions, mistakenly buried deep to the fore. This illness has given me the great gift of Conscious Awareness.
The second gift has been one of Gratitude. Being fully conscious meant I saw around me the many things I am so grateful for. All the things that are good and right and positive in my life. Even the smallest of blessings, like a cup of tea or the sound of a bird singing outside my window, brought a wave of thankfulness that raised me up to new heights.
Then I have been given the gift of time and space. Although I know everything happens in the Now, I like most others, rarely fill my Now with Peace and Understanding - always it is jobs to be done and tasks to take on. Being brought to be still with myself, means I've had time and space with my best friend - me. I have picked up my pens and in the stillness enabled the creative process to flow. Van Gogh at my shoulder, and the whole world starts to move and pulse and merge in the blissful, eternal dance of the Universe. I could cry when this happens because I know it is the Truth, and the calling of my Soul brings this honest and liberating emotion flooding through my body like an incoming tide. Surely to express in this way is the greatest gift of all? Surely our greatest gift is the knowing that we are, and always will be... Free.